Flying with colourful wings!

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Born as a bird,

Brought up in a nest,

Fantasized of flying with colourful wings,

Ditched by fate’s trip,

Went through rigid times,

Fallen down as a dried leaf!

Felt warmth by the wings that wrapped around me,

Felt as a queen and shared love,

Deceived by love and torn,

Left alone with shattered pieces of heart,

Learnt to live alone and fly on own,

Embraced by another love as a ray of light in a dark room,

Bloomed with hope and flied high,

Trusted and been intimated with the love,

Fantasized of being forever in each other’s arms,

Karma , been the bitch and seperated us,

Perished mentally, deceived,cried, loved,broken and left solely!

Fallen to the ground and sobbed silently,

Waited for the time to heal everything,

Gained all the strength,heaved my wings to glide along,

Failed first,teased by the life’s trick,fallen down all the time,

Tried and tired,

Congregated all the strength,tried again and again,

Gained all the courage and flying high in the sky to defeat my loneliness, my defeats, my fate, my scares, my shattered pieces of heart, my frails and my worries!

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Decieved&Dead!

Every second is like an era of pain which passes through every vein,

i was unaware of this nightmare,

Like the bird that fly high in the sky ,you went out with a relief of sigh,

Seeing you flying, made me to collapse there and remained crying,

I waited for so long by anticipating you to come along ,

With all the feeling of deserted and exasperated, i returned exhausted!

I explored the steps to reach the heights you live in,but failed because those are unapproachable to reach in,

Though they seems to be long way ,i tried to climb with all my intensity to reach you,

My eyes glittered to see you and my heart skipped a beat,in reaching you with the descending steps of every feet,

You have transformed and tossed me down,

I cried till my throat became empty and my eyes became fluffy,

A voice from inside, laughed because of me being so naive,

Being decieved&unvalued ,my body drowned in the shore and my soul which is the replica of sacred love ,died to the core!!

This is written in response to Tanya’s Poetry Challenge #3

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Dry leaf&fake smile

 

photo by Sandis Helvigs via Unsplash 


There is birth,life and death took placed in dried leaf which can only be seen by the hidden lines on it;the same way there will be agony,happiness,tears in each person which is hidden by every smile he fakes!!

Three line Tales challenge by Only 100 words
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Coffeeshop☕

She sipped her favorite double shot cappuccino sitting at the table of her favorite place and opened her laptop and checked the emails, suddenly she glanced at the date it’s October 26 ,2016 .A strange sudden feel passed through her veins. It’s his birthday and it’s been five years, but still she feels the same for him and this day reminds her of her nostalgic moments!
She closed the laptop, finished her cappuccino and lost in thoughts to the past days where they met at the same coffee shop , spent hours together holding each other hands, took pictures of themselves, had silly fightsspoke dirty, planned their future at the same table and the same place.

It’s January 3rd, 2009 on a sunny morning he entered into coffee shop to have his expresso,he ordered for one and settled at a table and involved himself in a magazine. As its weekday coffee shop is not much crowded and then she enters with a beautiful smile ordered her double shot cappuccino and sat at another table. They both had their coffees and when she was about to leave a voice called her from behind

He
: “Excuse me?!”

She:
She turned back with an attitude and said “yes”?

He
:”when you ordered coffee and passed through my table, an earring of yours fallen at my table and this is the one” and he gave her earring to her.

She
: In surprise she checked her ear found the empty ear, smiled and said “yes! It’s mine thank you”.

He
:”Pleasure is all mine to meet you and you have such a beautiful smile, i have ever seen!!”

She
: blushed slightly by his words, shook hand and introduced her.

They both introduced themselves and left the coffee shop. Days passed by and they met in the same coffee shop often and exchanged numbers. Both started to like each other and started introducing each other to their friends and started hanging out with each other. One fine day on a cool rainy evening on October 10, 2009

He: “can I ask you a question dear?”

She
: “yes! Sure. Why are you hesitating?”

He:
 “I just don’t know how to start and I’m not good at expressing thoughts, but I have to today. See, I have met many girls in my life, but never ever connected so much with anyone as I did with you. I don’t know where this goes and the first time when i saw you in the same coffee shop, I felt a special bond between us.”

She
: Staring at him with her puppy eyes and in a husky voice she said “complete it”.

He
: I really can’t imagine your absence in my life and can’t express how much your presence mean to me. I can’t promise you but I will take good care of you for the rest of our life. I can’t imagine you getting married and being in the arms of some other man. Just be my side on each single day in my life and make it bright!

He took a bouquet of roses and her favorite chocolates from his bag and gave her. He took her hand into his and said I love you , please accept my love ,i can’t live without you. Be as the mother for my kids and please consider me as another kid and bear me for the rest of life.

Tears rolled out of her eyes for his words and she said “i love you more than you do, I was waiting for this moment. This is the awesome moment of my life and you are the man of my dreams and fantasies”.

He bent forward and kissed her on forehead and that day it started like that where they laughed together, spent time together, kissed each other even at public, cooked for each other, surprised each other, showered each other with gifts, planned fantasized dates, many moonlight dinners. 

It’s their one year anniversary of love and she invited him to home and planned a romantic dinner .They had dinner sat in the balcony and gazed stars, spoke about their future. She said that she is going to surprise him and took him to a room of scented candles. She wanted to show how much she loved him and they ended up making love. She said “This was the gift which I wanted to give you on our anniversary. Nothing more than this can tell how much I love you”. He kissed her softly and their bodies entwined with loving souls. Months passed by and he got a call by her to meet him immediately at the coffee shop.

He: He kissed and asked “what’s the matter honey?”

She: “I don’t know how you will take this but I’m not happy as well as not sad, but I’m worried because of this. Don’t get panic by this. I got conceived and it’s second month.”

He: “what’s the f**k? Oh my god! It’s all because of your surprise, i didn’t plan any precaution and i couldn’t do anything! Are we really ready for this!? How can I tell this at home? ”

She: “I don’t know! We are well settled financially, we love each other but marriage is the only thing which we didn’t have and I can’t tell this at home and they can’t take this. But i need this baby because it’s the symbol of our love and I don’t want to kill or something.”

He: “Okay! Don’t worry, I’ll tell at home, even you tell about our relationship at your home and try to convince them. If they are not okay with this we should get married without their permission as we are majors and we love each other and if we drag like it will be a problem because we can’t hide the truth!”

She: “okay, but we need to do something soon” she smiled with tears and hugged him. He hugged her back and kissed her.

He went to his place and told his parents about this and they are okay with this and for the marriage but her parents are not okay with this and she fought at home and left her parents. When they met after meeting their parents, she hugged him and explained what has happened and he took her to his home where he stays and they are now being in a single home and it’s all his love which is making her happy!

It’s 7th month for her and she on maternity leave. One afternoon she is waiting for him to come home, but he didn’t come. She called and couldn’t reach his number then later in the evening she got a call stating that he met with an accident ,his head got injured ,due to heavy bleeding from the head and he passed away on the spot and they asked to collect the body from mortuary! She remained breathless for what she heard over phone and suddenly world seems to be upside down for her. She ran to hospital and collapsed on seeing him in such state. She couldn’t face and cried like hell. She doesn’t want this to happen and she wants her to be in his place instead of him. She called her parents, but they didn’t turn up. People are now calling him as body that was once her soul mate, love of her life. She called his parents and they blamed her for everything and did the funeral.

Life became so tough for her, she is unable to eat, sleep and survive. She cried like there are no more tears in her eyes, she couldn’t stay at the place where they lived happily. She hate god, her life. She cried in the darkness and remained all alone. She used to scream at nights and used to go mad literally. She wants to die and try committing suicide for two times but failed. She became weak physically and mentally without any moral support. Some of her friends admitted her in the hospital. Due to her ill health, baby’s condition is not proper inside and doctors took out the baby at 8 th month itself. It’s a premature tiny baby wrapped in a cloth, lying beside her with closed eyes, tiny ears, and tiny lips as his father’s. She touched his fingers and kissed him. Cried hard for her loneliness. Scolded her luck and fate. Prayed god to give strength to fight for her tiny little one.

She felt happy on seeing the tiny one and understood why she has to still exist. She faced lot of problems, she couldn’t get any help financially from both parents, heard many rumors of the society, faced worst situations, became stronger by each passing day and hided her tears to see the smiles of the little one. She worked hard just to fulfill all the needs of the little one and brought him up same as his father. She is happy to see their loved one to grow in front of her, but she has this missing feeling of the person once she loved the most.

She is now transformed into a strong single parent and owned the same coffee shop as remembrance of her love, where was once she used to be a regular vendee, a girl who was young and innocent, a girl who was childish, who was once thought of committing suicide for life’s injuries and girl who was once left alone by everything and everyone ,even by fate! 

 

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Past and present!

Those are the eyes which are now dried out of tears, which was once filled with happiness.

Those are the lips which are now faded out of smile ,which was once perfect with curves of laughter.

That is the heart which is now shattered into tiny pieces which was filled with love and hapiness.

It’s the person who is now turned coward, broken, fallen apart,lost trust,turned pessimistic , faded, lost and worn out ,who was once happy , loved, optimist, strong,beautiful, fun loving, and brave.

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Girl to Woman!

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This is for all the girls who have tendency to stay up all the night and listen to music of their favorite playlists who reminds them of their current situation ,for those who hides all their fears,hurt,pain and tears under their smiles and laughs on daily basis,for those who wear their heart in their sleeve,for those who pray everyday that something will be better someday and get satisfied.The girls who screamed and cried out loud into their pillow because rest of  the world fail to notice them. The girls who have it hard, but don’t let anyone know that.

The girls who have so many secrets,but never tell even a single soul,the girls who may never have it easy,the girls who have regrets and mistakes on a daily basis,those girls who may always win,who might never win,the girls who stay up all the night thinking and wondering about that one guy if he will ever notice her.The girls who get what they get and doesn’t give a shit about what they lost!The girls who accept life as it comes and hoping for a better one someday and expecting that life will get easier somewhere down the road.The girls who loves with all the heart,but always get broken.

Those girls who knows the value of love,  pain of life, fear of loosing, ache of breakup, belief and hope of getting along with life are the real girls.When a girl cross all these things in her life,she will definitely turn into a strong,bold woman.

Dedicated to all the girls who once faced a lot and now turned into a complete woman!

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Tears👁💦

Well some people say that crying is the sign of weakness ,but i personally feel that showing emotions is a sign of strength,not weakness!!

Some people think that crying is foolishness and it’s a sign of being weak ,but crying is the way of letting all the agony,sorrows out and becoming stronger to face the bigger consequences.Some keep all the agony,sorrow in them and get frustrated even for the petty things that leads to doing the wrong things.When you stay strong for so long and when things go even worse and when you can’t handle the pain anymore,the best thing is to cry out loud so that it empties a sorrowful heart to open up good things.

In modern society,fighting against the situation is not the desired social skill,building a life of commitments requires co-operation and willingness to be vulnerable in relationships,here tears acts as a signal of vulnerability that is powerful.Tears are very difficult to fake,so they are a sign of honesty.In earlier days people recognize tears as a sign of weakness ,but in today’s world,its a way of communucating upset,its effective as most people have a natural response to offer help or comfort to someone who is crying.

Well as said tears communicate different emotions.Some cry when they are happy and some cry for joy as well as fear,sorrow and sadness,some even cry when they are angry.

Sometimes crying occurs when we can’t put overwhelming feelings into words.Tears contain manganese and protiens,including some stress hormones,so people obviously feel better.Tear glands differ according to the sexes ,so women tend to cry more profusley than men because women have different tear gland structure.So women weep louder whereas men cry quietly to themselves.

In a relationship,tears may show trust,being willing to cry for a person is the sign that you love the person much.It’s like bonding in any relationship.Tears seem to be about a powerful connection between and emotion ,a way of expressing feeling that can’t be expressed in any other way.

Some people may be uncomfortable with the intensity of the emotion expressed by tears,with the intensity of the emotion aroused in them,they may not be comfortable with the vulnerability expressed by someone who is crying.It takes a lot of courage to be that vulnerable.Anyone who feels little disturbed can cry out loud when they are alone and can let all the pain to go out to be a better,strong person!